Once upon a time

2011-02-21T22:54:00.000+08:00

2011-01-28T00:34:00.003+08:00

The amazing moments in life

Holding hands
Finding a goal in life or something that you wanna do after graduation
Friends who still say ‘ilu’ when you thought you totally sucked
Resting on someone’s chest
When you realize everything’s gonna be okay
Shopping and getting great buys
Letting go and being happier (or moving on)
Great minds think alike
Sleeping like nobody’s business
Finding something that you thought’s gonna be lost for good
Getting in touch with a long lost friend
When classes are cancelled
Doing something spontaneous and having more fun than expected
Crying yourself to sleep and waking up to a beautiful weather
Showers in the evening
First time(s) (can be anything)
Random acts of kindness
Sleeping on a rainy day
Falling in love and being loved back
When silence between two people is comfortable
Cuddles
Putting a smile on someone’s face
Overcoming the odds
Cheering and being cheered
Kisses on the forehead
Having all the time in the world to do whatever you enjoy

Inspired by a post I saw on tumblr sometime back.

Be amazing - show some feat

2010-12-21T01:44:00.003+08:00

My phone is a miracle!
It survived a seven-storey fall and is still INTACT and working PERFECTLY FINE.
Can you even believe this?!
Am amazed seriously, considering the loud boom I heard after it fell which kinda sound like a small explosion.
Ok la, it got a very small chip at the bottom which means I can’t do trade next time boo.
And this happened all because of me and my silly aspirations haha.
Well at least I learnt something from this – never be too greedy.
I was wondering if this whole incident were to go on youtube, this phone’s gonna get a boost in sales for being so durable.
And this effect may even be seen in their upcoming version next year.
Okay maybe it’s too far fetched cause I suspect it was the phone cover I’m using.
I remember reading somewhere that it was made of some really tough material.

Anyway 2 bad news in a day, or make it three.
I’m not in the mood for Christmas this year.

Any kind souls willing to treat me some comfort food?
I promise I’ll feel better so it wouldn’t be a waste to spend some spare cash on me heh (:

5 more months to go.
Keep the faith.

2010-09-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

I’m having random thoughts of applying for homestay in a foreign land & whisking myself overseas for a week alone.

Or maybe longer.
How cool and exciting is that.

Guess that shall remain a dream for now.

School starts tmr btw.

2010-08-18T21:38:00.009+08:00

On Monday, I was supposed to catch a movie if not for the fact that I forgot to bring my hp to work & totally missed the opportunity.

But things still worked out fine after that and we settled on Tuesday, but I left my wallet at home this time.

On top of that, I've been squinting my eyes at the com for two days because I couldn't find my specs anywhere around the house.

Today.

On my way out to pack lunch, I heard my colleague sqealing behind me.

I turned around thinking that a car was coming and KONK - the car gantry came crashing down on me.

This driver was totally appalled and stared hard at me with an incredulous look.

I bet he must be thinking I was damn stupid.

Apart from feeling so embarassed, I couldn't help laughing at this whole silly incident.

It definitely felt like so much has happened recently.

I could list down almost ten absurd/unfortunate/weird events that occurred ever since last Friday.

ZOMG.

2010-08-16T09:51:00.011+08:00

Weekend was definitely crazy, but its all over now.

Had a number of bad/unclucky experiences and one of them includes being stepped on the toe by this lady wearing wedges.
My littlest toe started to feel burning hot & turned very red.

It kinda swell a little too.

Not to mention she didn't even offer an apology.

Luckily she wasn't in heels.

And because everything went wrong from the very start till the end of the four hours, I think I need to put in more than double the effort to prove my capabilities again.

This is so gonna be tough since I feel my laziness kicking in, haha.

Anyway I've decided to start a travel fund to save up for overseas trip.

Anyone who is willing to contribute is most welcome :D

K la, the above sentence is nonsense.

Cause I doubt no one in the right mind would do that, hahaha.

Just for the sake of ending off this post, heh.

So long till the next (:

Summer's endin' I'm so not crying

2010-08-10T16:07:00.004+08:00

It's now that time of the year where my hair is becoming so unruly.

And I so can't resist running my fingers through my hair, right from the top down & stopping at the middle to feel the waves.

It's quite a nice feeling, haha.

Oh well, I'm too bored in the office.

Superior isn't here and I'm done with my work this morning.

And having said that, I'm feeling guilty too.

You shd know what I mean since you're reading this, lol.

The summer of 2010.

The only good memories are all those of Bt Timah i s'pose.

Gonna be making my third trip there soon.

The only disappointing thing is the summit.

Its all surrounded by trees now, so unlike ten years ago where we could look afar and see a good part of the city.

I still remember seeing fireflies after sunset while going downhill during my first trip, how lucky!

I'm looking forward to the third one this holiday (:

Gonna say hello to all the snakes, monkeys, squirrels & lizards, hahaha.

K bye off to catch up with some work.

2010-07-16T17:56:00.001+08:00

I fail oh-so-badly in the socialising department.

Seriously.

It bothers the hell out of me sometimes.

2010-06-24T23:17:00.003+08:00

I am so disheartened.

And I hate having to wake up to the sound of my phone ringing every morning.

Not the alarm by the way.

I'm getting sick of travelling & going for interviews.

Can anyone tell me if interviewees are expected to ask a lot of questions?

Because I get interviewers asking me the same question repeatedly: Do you have any questions?

The thing I hate most about interviews is that the most appropriate answers and questions only come after the interview is over.

Anyway it was funny how George asked if I’m violent because I joined muay thai as a CCA.

Probably because he asked about trainings and I said it was fun and interesting.

He seemed quite taken aback, haha.

Speaking of muay thai, I kinda miss those trainings.

I am secretly in love

2010-05-17T01:39:00.001+08:00

...with the bathroom in my house, especially when the sun shines in through the little windows above the shower.
Everything just feels great & hopeful right then.
Showers are therapeutic in a sense.
Even when there’s no sun shining through the bathroom windows and it’s a totally different feeling altogether.

And I think I need some kinda plan for my holidays.
But oh no!
Everything just seems to crash.
Anyway I know the very first thing on my plan would be to clear up all my notes that are all over the house – living room, dining area, bro’s room and my room.
SIGH.
Gonna get all dusty and sweaty tomorrow.

Let’s hope I get my wish this holiday.

I LOVE YOU RAIN OR SHINE

2010-04-21T00:26:00.002+08:00

Potatoes!
I’m mad about them.
Wouldn’t mind having them everyday, hahaha
Anyway I had a whole packet of fries to myself after dinner :D

Too bad it doesn’t help with all the stress I’m having from information overload.
:(

My hiatus from blogging shall end in MAY.
BACK TO MUGGING.
YES, AT THIS NOT SO EARTHLY HOUR.

A time for everything

2010-01-09T18:24:00.003+08:00

Status quo may not be the best - at least not in the long run.
Things have never improved though there are times when it was good in the past.
But it is better in a way now which you would probably never understand.
Sometimes I think hard about why things are the way it is now.
But many things are not so clear anymore.
I need to change.
Maybe more than you do.

2010-01-07T18:58:00.003+08:00

So its 2010 now.
And the sad thing is I’ll be spending almost half of it on examinations.
After exams it’ll be the holidays when I’m gonna get myself a job until sch reopens and a few months later, we’ll be counting down to 2011.
Not to forget the many 21st birthdays throughout the year.

2009 hasn’t had anything much for me to reminisce about.
Nothing too memorable, but not too bad either.
The end was probably the best with gatherings, shopping and my self-declared break from school work.

Somehow 2010 doesn’t feel like a brand new start.
Probably because I’m still in the midst of school term.
I think I need something more exciting in my life.
But I can’t figure out what.

Anyway, cheers to a better year ahead! (:

2009-12-28T01:58:00.000+08:00

The fact that I’m lazy really bothers me sometimes.
I hate it this way.
But you know once you let loose for even one or two days, it’s hard to gain back the momentum.
What’s more it’s the holiday period now with Christmas just over and new year coming next week.

So I got hooked to the com and did quite a bit of shopping.
I guess that should settle my outfits for cny (:
Probably a little too early, but no harm yea?

Haha.

2009-12-25T14:07:00.001+08:00

So recently I’ve developed a thing for eating tomatoes and dipping my food into tomato sauce.
I never knew tomatoes were so tasty!

Forget about chilli sauce, hahaha.

2009-12-24T13:13:00.002+08:00

Last week I was browsing the various poly courses online with my bro.

He's grown so much now.

Very occasionally I do randomly miss the little boy.

I remember there was a period where my mum used to do revision with him and he would cry when my mum flew into a temper.

Then I would go into his room to comfort him whenever I hear his cries.

But then again, its a different experience now that he's a teenager.

We would joke, talk and maybe go shopping with the family once in a while.

On monday the family went on a shopping trip to bugis.

Even though I didn't join them, just imagining them together makes me feel very much blessed because this shows we still spend time together and do things as a family.

I know I'm lucky because of that.

I love them very much though there are times when I get irritated to the core by certain things, haha.

Its christmas eve today and somehow I'm still unable to get into the christmas mood.

I can't wait for cny next year!

I hope I get more angbao $$$ to replenish my depleting bank account!

2009-12-05T12:27:00.000+08:00

It’s already December and I’m still caught up in the struggle to catch up with school work.
Not to mention the fact that I haven’t done much studying this week because of various reasons and events.
:/

And the weather these few days is sooo cold.
I miss sunny days!
I wanna go swimming again soon.

Things work both ways.
If you don’t know how to trust, people don’t trust you either.

2009-11-21T21:33:00.001+08:00

I like how the winds smell during the rainy season end of every year.
I could stand by the windows just to feel the wind and inhale the smell, haha.

And guess who I saw on my way to sch ytd?
Kym Ng!
She was filming this variety show which is going to be aired this dec.
I pity the guy behind me who was approached by her the moment she entered the train.
He probably had a shock.
Imagine this big crowd with cameras entering the small cabin and before you could make sense of the situation, Kym Ng was asking you questions in the face, haha.
I must say her reaction was quite fast and she has a loud voice.
Apparently they were looking out for people who were not behaving ‘properly’ like not holding the handrails or standing at the exit and blocking the way.

I hate Fridays cause I’m all alone for the 3 hour maths lecture.
And worse still, I had to doze and jerk awake beside some stranger.
Damn embarrassing.

Somehow I just can’t remember clearly whether Christmas falls on the 24th or 25th.
I have to pause and think before I could be sure.

Probably because I’m never into Christmas.

2009-10-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

Something weird happened to my hotmail.
It auto mass sent emails like “Hello, long time no see” and “Hiya, how ya doing?” to my contacts.
Surprisingly, I got a reply from this old friend (used to be a best friend) whom I’ve lost contact with.
Nice surprise though (:
Despite the fact that I wasn’t the one behind it.
And somehow it sort of brought back memories of the past too, haha.

And I need a term break or sem break or smth!
I seriously need to catch up.
ZZZ.

Of growing up

2009-10-06T00:17:00.002+08:00

Today my mum just told me that my cousin has just started dating this senior from her school.
And they are most probably visiting during cny next year.
A few months back, my mum told me a similar story about another cousin of mine.
And not so very long ago, my friend started dating too.
I’ve also seen some others on facebook.
It seems like we’re entering another phase of life and I didn’t realise so much until all these things came about.
So I guess a few more years down the road, I’ll be hearing from my mum that my cousin is getting married, haha.
Or probably any one of my friends.
I can’t help but feel weird, seriously.
When I was young, I used to be watching all these happening to my cousins who are much older.
But now it’s happening to my generation, haha.

How time flies.

Pretty

2009-09-09T12:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday school finally felt like school, for the very first time since I started more than one month ago.
Sitting together in class, chatting over lunch at the canteen, walking around sch talking and doing homework together is just happiness (:
Shi Ting agreed with me that this was the first time she felt this way too, haha.
Otherwise on normal days home is where we’re all headed after lectures.

Presentation was quite screwed even though Dr. Or said our work was good, haha.
I haven’t had any public speaking since god knows when.
Maybe three years?

I realize I seldom smile when I’m in unfamiliar settings.
Or when there are too many unfamiliar people around.
Just before the start of my presentation, Raine did the smiley action to remind me to smile.
And it sort of just occurred to me that it seems like I haven’t been smiling since the start of the lecture.
Probably I was trying too hard to hide my nervousness.
Can’t help getting stiff and I guess it’s all reflected on my face, hahaha.

Sometimes it just amazes me how I still have you and some people around me.

I think my house has got some pretty views outside the windows.
From my dad’s room, when the wind blows, I can see tiny leaves dancing in the air amongst the trees like green snow.
Just that they are floating upwards, not down.
And if I lie on my bed at night, I can see and hear aeroplanes flying across the night sky, being just tiny spots of lights.
Nice (:

2009-08-24T01:58:00.002+08:00

My mum is such a light sleeper.

It’s times like these when you feel like you want to blog but nothing comes to mind.
I think I need to get the momentum going and start studying soon instead of bumming around all day, haha.
On a random note, I sort of enjoy the relationship I have with my student.
Though there’s a 7 year age gap, we could talk about almost anything.
And do silly things like laughing at the most nonsensical jokes and antics, playing a fool, making fun of each other and even getting into a little fight or struggle.
Haha, that last one is something I don’t even do with my friends or siblings.
I think she’s pretty mature for her age and I could even tell her my problems.
And her reply really shocked me.
Not to mention her good morning and goodnight, love you sms-es.
I admit she’s really irritating and rough at times but its been a really great experience for the past eight months (:

I didn’t know tuition could turn out like that.
And I don’t deny we wasted precious time, hahaha.
But I still do my job though it could be better.

Kids are really sweet.
I met Cathleen online some time back and even though its been 2 years, she said she still misses me.
Yet another pleasant surprise (:

2009-08-19T01:57:00.002+08:00

Its been hectic ever since sch started and I miss the holidays.
What’s worse is I couldn’t focus properly on studies because I keep thinking there’s so much to absorb with so little time and I start to panic.
Or else I couldn’t understand after a few readings and I give up in frustration.
Being a blur doesn’t help at all because brining the wrong notes to classes is hampering my progress.
Ok, not like I’m progressing anyway.
There’s so much readings to do and omg, the essays are so chimology and full of theories and hence many names to remember.
Not forgetting the real life facts and examples which I have very little knowledge of.
So its gonna be reading and more reading and also practice.

The best thing about sch is probably nageb’s lessons which is so interesting.
Unlike Dr. Or’s sociology classes.
Sometimes I get irritated by her trying too hard to get a response from us and her “why are u guys like that?” comments.
Nageb deals with it so much better and we do respond by the way.
Humour is important yes.
And what lecturers do to get a response from us.
Its not easy, but we students are like that, haha.

And I made new friends!
Though we don’t keep in touch outside lectures, but oh wells.
Its nice to have someone to chat with in class and during breaks.
I think I’m lucky enough (:

You said I don’t know u enough and I thought maybe yes.
I’ll try harder (:

And seriously, I don’t like adding people I don’t know on facebook.
But I already added two, haha.

Two more left pending and I’m gonna leave those alone.

2009-07-26T14:37:00.001+08:00

“But to me u r not hard to understand but just that if anyone who really want to use the heart to understand and u willing to let them understand u a not”

“… u just make mistake and let the mistake happen? Cause I told u before u r blur but u understand what u need to do but u just make mistake in the process try to think longer then only do thing it makes more clear”

- From someone whom isn’t really a friend, probably just an acquaintance.

Thanks much (: for being truthful, knowing me and also bringing me out of my bad mood.

Also to that girl whom I’ve underestimated:
Thanks for being such a great help.

They will never be reading this but oh wells (:

I’ve had enough of surprise and shock since last night.

Your rudeness has disappointed me.

2009-07-18T12:46:00.002+08:00

Somebody said I’m hard to understand.
Actually I think so too.
Because there are times when I think I’m this way and things happened made me go “Oh, I’m not what I thought/claim I was.”
How disappointing.
And then I’ll think back and realize its me trying to change myself too hard.
Maybe I confuse people & myself that way I don’t know.

But of course, there are certain things that will never change about me.

And I’m very sure of that.

2009-07-14T16:29:00.001+08:00

I miss bee kim.
And I couldn’t help but smile when I saw that she added me on msn, haha.
Like finally, because she didn’t used to have an account.
Wonder what we’re gonna say to each other, lol.

And too much thinking is making me tired.
Maybe there’s no need for me to think.
The time will come if I need to decide again.
So till then.

I’m looking forward to dinner, haha.
Too bored at home.
ZZZ.
In the meantime I shall settle for some papayas :D

2009-07-13T13:10:00.001+08:00

Opening four cans in a row is no joke.
Blood was dripping and it stained the can.
Oops!
Not sure if the customer saw anything, but she didn’t mind that I have to go away to clean the can after opening it.
Phew.

And the paper steamboat thingy caught fire, haha.
Luckily everything was fine (:

I wanna go ikea!
I need to get a mini bookshelf and discard the black holders I’ve been using since primary sch days.
Time for a little revamp (:
I’ve even gotten a cork board but I don’t know how I can hang it up, haha.

Freshmen orientation is over.
Modules fixed, timetable fixed, fees paid.
Time for school.
Soon.

Somehow I’m a little excited about my 8.30 class on Tuesday.

2009-06-23T00:44:00.003+08:00

It’s been some time since I last blog & I don’t really know where to start, haha.
Sometimes I’m just a little bit curious.
Who are the people who read my blog?
If there are any others besides those few I know.

My super duper long break is ending real soon.
I have like one month left.
Oh no!
I don’t think I’m prepared for school yet.
No stationeries and not enough clothes, haha.
All I have is a pathetic black pen which I use for work.
And speaking of clothes, I wish I could be like one or two size bigger seriously.
Otherwise it’s really really hard to find clothes that fit nicely.
:(

Much has happened this holiday yes no?
I think it’s a half yes.
Life is bland, but I think I’ve met and talked to more people than I did in school.

And I was pretty upset yesterday because I think I ruined fathers’ day for this customer.
But the old man was really nice and he smiled at me while his daughter just ranted angrily.
Really sorry!

Anyway, I’ve always thought that guys are better customers than girls because they are more forgiving.

2009-06-10T19:51:00.002+08:00

Bee Kim is back, yay!
It takes two hands to clap.

How true.

2009-05-31T23:33:00.003+08:00

SWIMMING IS AN AWESOME SPORT!
Love it love it!
Was damn shagged when I came home from work yesterday, but my sis was at home too and we talked about going swimming.
We were undecided so I fell asleep, haha.
And I was woken up by my sis’s voice saying they (my sis & bro) were going swimming.
So we rush pack rush pack and off we go!
At first it seems like it was going to rain anytime soon but we still went ahead, haha.
It’s been six long years since I stepped into the swimming complex or even swim.
My sis and I were damn paiseh about removing our clothes, lol.
Anyway the water is great because its warm & I actually forgot how to swim.
But I recalled everything soon after a few tries.
Silly me forgot to bring undergarments so I dried myself with a towel and went home with my swimsuit underneath my clothes.
I like how swimming tires me because I can sleep really well at night after that.

Swimming is so addictive I can’t wait for the next chance to go again, lol.

My cousins came over on Wednesday and it was fun hanging out even though they’re only eleven.
Sometimes I really wish I could be more like a 20 year old because it seems like I get along better with kids than people around my age.

Friday was supposed to go blading with sushi but we didn’t feel like going blading after meeting up.
So we ended up at ehub and dte.
I got my drink from cup walker finally after craving it for so long :D
And dinner that day was at market 85 with the hippos.
After that we da-baoed our dessert and had it at the playground.
Wanted to play catching with naughty kids but they rejected us, lol.
Later we messed around with lipsticks on our faces and took photos at mei’s house.

That’s basically the whole week.
I wish I had more off days next week.
Even though work is only four hours per shift but it seems to take the whole day away.

MOOLAH THE ROOT OF ALL EVIL

2009-05-26T01:58:00.000+08:00

My latest addiction!
Get me one and I’ll be happy while it lasts.
I drink it even when I come home from work at 11pm.

Work is so boring.
I’m getting tired of working like seriously.
And I think my mindset was wrong right from the start.
Or maybe I’m showing frustration unconsciously.
Maybe this, maybe that.
It’s just mixed from everywhere.
They see something wrong with me from my face and what I’m doing.
So she called me to talk.
I thought what she said was right so I became a little better.
But I’ve stopped where I’m at because I don’t have any motivation anymore.

I’ve been feeling down lately.

Wednesday might be able to cheer me up a little though (:

2009-05-20T00:55:00.001+08:00

There’s so much we do not know about each other.

IF ITS A DREAM LET IT BE SOMETHING GOOD

2009-05-15T12:35:00.003+08:00

Itashimasite.

I hate being a newbie with something I’m not good at.
HOWS?

:(

Nowadays I still get the feeling that working life is so surreal.
Like hello?
I’m working already?
Can’t believe it.

And it has been more than a year.

2009-05-13T01:48:00.002+08:00

Travelled down to SIM in the afternoon for payment.
And I felt kinda sad that I can’t have the chance to experience life in a local uni.
Probably I didn’t want it badly enough back then.

Certain things are probably better left unsaid and pretended unheard.
Because I really don’t know what to do, what exactly is going on, what the consequences are and whether I’m right.
Hm.

I shall go cycling if it doesn’t rain tomorrow.

Oh ya!
I just thought I might be able to catch the sunset (:

2009-05-11T00:46:00.003+08:00

I’ve been traveling a lot here and there and making phone calls to get things done ever since my contract ended and I’m getting so sick of it.
But at least things are halfway there and I could probably start work this coming week.
I still need to head down to SIM tmr moning and RELC on sat.
I hope that will be the last of all the long distance traveling.
And also my mum’s nagging.
I don’t understand why she keeps nagging at me ever since my A’s ended.
And she didn’t nag at my sis to make more money, get an admin job, blah blah.
It’s so unfair because her nagging makes me stressed up and frustrated.
It makes me want to give up communicating with her totally.
Now I know better than to share things with her.
I know what I need to do and I want to get things done too.
Enough of nagging.

I wonder when bee kim is coming back from China & whether she will contact me when she’s back as promised.
And hopefully she’s fit & healthy.

The problem with me is that I think about people more often than they know because I do nothing about it.
I’m afraid of losing the people I know but I always tell myself I can do these things later.
Like after I’m done with my stuffs etc.
But the thing is we all have never ending things to do, lol.
Awkwardness is another concern because sometimes I need time to warm up and I am seldom talkative.
I can’t be asking people out and don’t talk much.
Sometimes I’m deterred by how I feel people think about me because I trust my feelings.
Oh god.
I’m making something as simple as asking others out so complicated, lol.
And my late reply to sms-es.
I should get rid of my laziness.
Get going girl!

HAHA.

It feels good to get things off your chest.

2009-05-03T23:46:00.036+08:00

Cleaning up yesterday!
I walked in and out of my room a few times to chuck 3.5 bags (the big red kind) of well, junks.
And it couldn’t fit into the bin at all.
I had to take some of the things out and threw them one by one until it could fit into the bin.
It wasn’t fun at all even though it was pretty interesting to run through those things I kept, some even from primary school days, haha!
I was all sweaty and dusty in the end.

Some of the randoms in my cupboard:

The above are from the ndp booklet which I kept since sec one.
Anyway, I threw the book away.

Finally.

I was pretty shocked to see all these together in a bag.
What a waste of money, haha.
And that red book was from my primary sch days.
I threw all these away too, simply because I didn’t know what to do with them.
Yes, its not environment friendly I know.

Another one of those things which startled me.
Reminds me again of how I like to waste money, haha.

CO songs (the blue one) + another random cd (from who I forgot).
I kept these (:

Cards! (:
Most went into the bin, except for those recent ones.

Haha, empty biscuit tin!
Its too adorable to be thrown away, lol.
Anyway I’ve thought of how I can use it (:

Motivational cards which saw me through o’levels.
I placed it on the window sill in front of my desk so that I’ll continue to work hard all the way.

Phonecards!
From before primary sch I think.
I kept these too because I’ve thought of how to use them (;

TUNER!
From CO days (:
And I’ve kept all the scores too.

This is still in my cupboard.
Now I’m thinking I should have thrown it away, lol.

I found a photo album with my pri sch pictures.
And I saw this when I flipped to the last page.
Memories!

After the big clean up, I realized that I should’ve done it long ago.
What’s the point of treasuring all these lifeless things when there are the people around for you to love?
Not that everything should be thrown away, but what matters more are the people who gave me those precious memories.

And I met up with Qinnn for lunch today :D
Its interesting how our topics change as we inch closer towards adulthood.
It gave us much to laugh about, haha.
<3

Having 2 ulcers on my lower lips ouch!

Am heading down to tiong bahruuuuu tomorrow.

Goodnight! (:

2009-04-25T20:19:00.004+08:00

It’s the nitties gritties again!

Everything came as a haste and just went haywire.

And I did something careless today which ended up in more trouble for myself.
HELPPPPPPPPPPPPP!

I hope to get things done by next week.

2009-04-22T23:29:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was officially the last day.
And unexpectedly, I felt a kind of reluctance.
Though there are times when the going gets really tough, I’ll still miss those people whom I’ve grown familiar with over the past half year.
The jokes, the chats, the lunches and the kindness sometimes…
Thinking that I probably would never see them again makes me kind of sad.
Despite any unhappiness that happened, I’m still glad that I took on this job, saw what the real working life is like, seen retrenchment, learned to accept and adapt, knew people, faced tough times, survived it and asked people about their life, haha.
Most importantly I gained that little bit of confidence knowing that I’ve been a pretty good help and being appreciated.

It’s bittersweet.
Though I really hated waking up in the mornings to report to work, I need time to get used to not going to the office, lol.
It’s weird how things always turn out.

I’m really thankful for such a special journey made (:

2009-04-11T23:42:00.000+08:00

Room clearing phase 1
My room is cluttered with dust thanks to the construction going on at my block.
Luckily I wasn’t feeling lazy today.
I placed things back to where they should be, wiped off the dust from my table and threw away some… useless stuffs.
Which were once parts of my memory.
I think if I were an old lady living alone, I would have half a century of memories living literally with me in my flat, hahaha.
Now I sort of understand why old people like to collect what we would call rubbish.
And if I have children, they would surely nag the hell out of me.
I wouldn’t want to end up like that, lol.
So phase two is coming soon the day right after my last day at work.
I don’t think I want to wait till cny next year.

Now my chair and table can be used again.
(Imagine the mess before, haha.)

This evening I was doodling at my table, looking up at the evening sky and randomly sms-ing.
That felt really good.

2009-04-06T01:51:00.002+08:00

COUNTDOWN: 2 WEEKS 2 DAYS

It’s when the end is near that is the toughest.
And I mean really tough.
I can’t wait for it to be over.

Meanwhile I still haven’t found a job yet.
FRET FRET FRET.
I don’t wanna be stuck at home with nothing to do.
& I don’t know what kind of job to look for.
SHUCKS.

My sis is lunching with me on tues! (:

& Hans is the new love!
The pasta is yummy, hahaha.
And they have very affordable set meals.
With soup, drink, main course, dessert and garlic bread!

2009-03-26T01:08:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder if anyone ever find me hard to know/understand because I seldom talk about my stuff to others in detail & I don’t take initiative in a lot of things.
The only person who can read my thoughts is my sis and I find that really scary and frustrating because we all need privacy.
Yes, even how we feel sometimes.
Not that there’s anything to hide, but its like being naked when people know exactly what you are thinking/can read you like a book and they tell it to you straight in the face.
Having someone who knows you is a good thing, but not always.
The last person I want on earth to know my insecurities is probably my sis, lol.

She is spot on about the nasty things most of the times, hahaha.

Anyway I’m off from work tmr.
And sow heng was nice to ask me if I wanted to have nasi lemak for lunch with them tmr.
With bee kim leaving at the end of the week, I don’t know when we can get to lunch together again.
But!
I get to lunch with long time buddy Qinnn!
Looking forward :D

I hope to settle all the nitties gritties asap.
I’m receiving warning letters and reminder sms-es from singtel monthly, lol.
Plus late payment fee :(
Uni application shall be done by Friday.
Yes, it will be done.

My mum can stop nagging alr, hahaha.

2009-03-22T13:12:00.000+08:00

Homemade baked rice for lunch!
Can’t wait, yums! :D

It’ll be even better with a bowl of tomato soup (:

2009-03-20T01:11:00.000+08:00

One month is shorter than I expected.
Maybe I looked at the calendar too much.
And I worry as much as I look forward to freedom day.
What am I going to do with so much time?

Sometimes I wish I could feel a little more.
Because there’s this nagging feeling that wouldn’t go away.
And the idea of going overseas for a holiday is back into my mind again.

On a brighter note:
YAY! Friday’s here again (:

2009-03-14T18:01:00.002+08:00

Last weekend I met my childhood best friend at bugis with her boyfriend.
And she ABSOLUTELY forgot the fact that I was from jc.
She thought I just graduated from polytechnic.
I wonder what happened to those times when we happened to meet each other at the bus stop after school.
I was quite incredulous.
Maybe she got misled by the fact that I’m signing up for uni with my sis.
Lol.

Took three days off from work in two weeks because of my swollen left eye.
Colleagues at work have been asking me about my eye & giving random advices like staying away from eggs and seafood (both are my fav! haha).
And it’s a wonder how news can spread in the office, lol.
I am still irritated by the fact that people obviously dislike me for giving them work.
It’s what I have to do and it’s so not up to me can.
As if I like approaching them.
And it’s their job to do it anyway.

My tuition kid is a headache.
Sometimes I feel more like a babysitter for reminding her to study for her tests, asking her to bring her books home, finish her hw etc. etc.
She doesn’t really listen to most of my advices anyway.
I explain letters to her dad occasionally too.
And it’s tiring to have to put on a stern front every time.
There was this time when her dad called me up to her house at 11 plus pm to look at her maths test which she failed.
Sigh.
I wonder where all those practices went.

Uni application is another headache for now.
Weekends are still the best!
I can eat all three meals slowly, haha.

I love Friday nights and Saturdays (:

2009-03-02T00:16:00.002+08:00

I want…

A supportive clique that I can hang out with ever so often
A friend who can call me during my nap one random afternoon to ask me out on a shopping trip
A friend whom I can do the same & she’ll be there most of the time

But we’re all leading different lives & I can’t force anything.

Sigh.

Maybe I should stop being so passive too.
But it isn’t all about that.
Certain things that did not happen let me see certain truths.
I’m not needed.
I don’t know if I think too much.

But whatever.
Sometimes I’ll think and think and become all sad and emo.
In the end I still put them all aside.
Haha.

And Harris has some 50% sale going on today.
Because I’m broke towards month end, I didn’t get anything other than doing some random browsing.

I seldom sign in to msn because I don’t like chatting online.
I prefer face to face / on the phone.
And sometimes it takes me awhile to reply sms-es.
I’m lazy / don’t like sms-ing.
I still prefer face to face / phone calls.
But nowadays it’s mostly because of work which is keeping me so busy during the day.

But there are always exceptions.
Only when I feel like it.

All these don’t mean I care any less though (:

2009-02-19T01:21:00.002+08:00

When you grow up, parents don’t really consider how something affects your feelings anymore.
You tell them something and they don’t empathize or listen or ask you why and what happened.
They give you this super practical answer which you know it yourself and start to raise their voice.
You don’t even hear a word of encouragement or why they think it’s the best for you.
All they think about is money and studies.
It’s as if they forgot you’re in your teens and you still need a life.
Or sometimes you may have something happy to tell them and they just give a nod.
I always regret telling my mum things about myself because I hate it when things have to go her way.
Maybe if I didn’t tell her and eventually I chose the practical way, I wouldn’t be so upset with myself because it’s ultimately my decision.
She didn’t affect me.
Now it’ll seem like I gave in to her and she’s right after raising her voice at me.
I don’t care if I slammed the door.

Now I’m stuck again.
I’ve been at the same junction for the second time.
And that’s more than enough because it’s like making the same mistake twice.
But I can’t deny that I’m a practical person.

I need more time.

SHOUT OUT

2009-02-16T00:58:00.002+08:00

I’m feeling pretty stressed up right now.
I WANT A HOLIDAY.

2009-02-09T01:15:00.002+08:00

Watched tv for four hours straight from 7pm.
It’s been some time since I last sat down for so long in front of the tv.
The best thing I like about watching tv is its ability to keep me engrossed, make me forget everything and laugh.
Its been a pretty good four hours watching tv with my mum though we didn’t exchange too much words.

Good show too, haha.

I DREAD GOING TO WORK TMRRRRR! :(

2009-02-08T13:25:00.019+08:00

LAST SAT/ HAPPY B. BDAY JX

We were randomly calling each other red and blue because of our dress code (:

There was this silly uncle who opened his feet wide and step left right left right across the bridge and we were shaking like crazy kuku, lol.

But it was quite fun.

COUNTDOWN / PICNIC

Botanic gardens

Pretty evening sky!

FOOD!!! Haha.
SEE MY FAV MR. PRINGLES?
Lol. I couldn’t stop munching it xD

Holland v. / starbucks

Countdown was quieter this year since we chose to sit at starbucks over drinks and chicken pie.
And phototaking, lol.
That was our third consecutive countdown together (:

A pity I didn't take any pics for cny.

Have to wait one more year lehhh.

BEHIND EVERY SMILE IS NOT ALWAYS A SMILE

2009-02-07T13:07:00.003+08:00

Work was hell yesterday.
Imagine having to watch people’s faces five days a week.
There’s sure to be a breaking point.
What’s worse was when the colleague whom I lunch with everyday can’t seem to be bothered too.
I know she’s busy and they’re busy, but I still cried in the toilet.
They have their work to do, but I have mine too.
And after that my mood for the whole day was down.
And I really hate mike’s attitude and his sometimes act-cute ways.
Plus shah is going over to the other team and so mike is taking over.
Like WTH.

I don’t know why but I feel childish whenever I get angry over something and I end up hating myself.

When I saw best friend’s reply, my mood was slightly better.
“why why u ok anot!”
Lol (:

Working life is damn lonely.

2009-01-31T00:53:00.002+08:00

Once you adapt, you get addicted.
I seem to enjoy being alone these days.
It’s not such a bad thing because I’m never good at being myself.

And work is getting ridiculous.
#%&%$^
I’m getting paper cuts everyday.
I have this slit on my finger which can open and close -.-
It doesn’t bleed because my fingers are too dry, but it hurts when I bathe.
And the team doesn’t deserve the awards because the service is like crap.
Customers are anxious and complaining and they don’t pick up the calls.
Like what the hell la.
Figures are not everything.
It’s the quality please.
I seriously don’t like the management.
And I dislike Mike who is so yaya.

I don’t like to mention names.
But I’ve had enough.
Work makes me feel old and grumpy.

I need happy pills.

CNY

2009-01-25T23:43:00.002+08:00

The strong wind these days is messing up my hair.
Then again, it’s nice to have such cool weather (:

Did last minute shopping yesterday at bugis and cityhall.
This is the first time I bought clothes last minute for cny.
And people on the streets were either in groups or in pairs.
I seem to be the only one shopping alone.
But it turned out very fruitful and I spent more than a hundred bucks, haha.

CNY this year is seriously disappointing.
Since ah going passed away last year, plans for tomorrow are uncertain.
I seriously miss the crowd at ah gong’s house during cny.
:(
How things change as the years passes.

Had reunion dinner at grandma’s house in the evening.
It was awkward since I haven’t been there for almost 2 years.
Cousins don’t even seem like cousins since we don’t even talk.
And I dislike listening to comments/praises which others say for the sake of saying.
They have good intentions but I still don’t like it.
I rather they not say it.
It’s the same every cny and I have to deal with the awkwardness.
And ahma seems to have shrunk.
Anyway, I’m still looking forward to Tuesday (:
When people whom I’m more familiar with gather.

I have this cupboard which I think is like storage for my memories.
Every gift I received since secondary school, ndp booklets and other random stuffs go in there.
It’s now so full I can hardly put in anymore stuffs.
I think I should start to clear it next cny.

But I know I’ll end up retaining 80 to 90 percent of the stuffs, haha.

2009-01-11T16:54:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO!
I just wrote a model compo for my student.
It feels good to be writing!

*feeling proud of my work*

haha.
(:

And what a relaxing weekend it has been.
With a few random/sometimes serious thoughts about the same old things.

Ok, maybe not so relaxing because marking work with no answers is squeezing all the brain juice out of my head.

THE UNSPOKEN STUFFS

2009-01-04T23:43:00.002+08:00

It was great seeing them again.
Though we weren’t close at all – it was just ‘hi’ and ‘bye’ most of the time, I was really glad to see them again after months.
And it’s quite coincidental how they were all at their respective outlets today, with the exception of ah han at far east.
And met up with cindy at the usual place and ate the usual stuff, haha.
Its nice hanging out with youuuuu (:
And do take care of yourself!
Have a good rest if you’re not feeling well k!
I think I repeated that too many time, oops.
Haha.
These few days were moody.
I’ve been brooding about certain things.
That’s why when I got scolded ‘irritating’ by the bus driver yesterday, it almost got me into tears.
It sort of triggered all the bad emotions, haha.
Anyway I really didn’t mean it.
I just wasn’t quick enough in flagging for the bus.
But oh well.

I got over it pretty soon (:

2009-01-03T00:51:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANCY!
AND OMG YOU’RE TWENTY BUT DO STAY CRAZY ‘COS IT’S BEEN FUN HANGING OUT WITH YOU THROUGHOUT 2008 LOL.
LOVE, FROM ZHEN.

I KNOW U WILL SEE THIS GIRL, HAHA.
May 2009 be a richer and happier year!
Happy twentieth (:

2009-01-01T23:26:00.003+08:00

Hello 2009! (:
The first half of the year is gonna be history repeating itself.
I don’t know about how the rest of the year will go.
But it definitely helps to face each day with a smile.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

And I see cny decorations on the streets alr!
YIPEEE!
I wanna visit Chinatown with the family!

And hopefully we can celebrate dad’s birthday.
We never had a celebration for him all these years.
Not even a gift or a ‘happy birthday’.
He deserve much more for working so hard.
He fell asleep in front of the com, fell off the chair and hit his head against the wall this afternoon.
And I didn’t know until he told me about it.
Stubborn dad refuses to rub his head even though I told him to.

And my mum too.
Maybe I should try to help her more with the housework.
She’s not getting younger.

I should watch my spending!
SAVE SAVE SAVE!

Feed myself with less junk.
You don’t know how much I ate last year, haha.

And it’s about time I start realizing the things I wanted to do.
If it’s within my means.

TELL ME SANTA, IF ALL THESE WOULD LAST TILL THE NEW YEAR

2008-12-25T23:46:00.003+08:00

It's Christmas today.
But I don't really have a thing for Christmas.
Staying home was good, haha.
Cleared my table, played with eye make-up (which I think doesn't really suit me), wrapped presents, finished my book & took a little nap.
It's been some time since I get to spend an entire day at home.
& the chilly weather makes it great!

The office had a mini lucky draw on the eve & I won something!!!
Twenty dollars worth of ntuc vouchers, haha.
Though I don't have much use for it, it still feels good to win something.
At least it shows luck can still rub off on me, lol.
Bee kim was nice to 'kapok' food from her section for my lunch even though I said many times not to.
She paid for my meals twice already.
Shah was asking me to go for lunch at one & mike said not to worry as I’m well taken care of by both sections.
And it makes me feel a little blessed on Christmas Eve to have kind and helpful people around in the office.
Maybe they see me as a 'little girl' like what Agnes called me.
But somehow life seems to be getting a little better.
When things go the good way, it seems to make me dread any unhappiness even more.
But still it pays to keep yourself in a cheerful mood.
Because there's a chance of it rubbing off on someone else.
And you'll make people around you happier.
I do feel happier these days and laughing more.
So I shouldn't think so far ahead yeh.
(:

I swear this is the first time I feel so blessed on Christmas.
And it feels good.
That even thinking back causes my eyes to water.
Getting emo, no good no good.
Haha.

My kuku silly phone can't forward messages so I didn't really bother to send any Christmas greetings except for a few.
Sorry if you sent me one & didn't hear from me.

And the girls are going to Malaysia tomorrow.

Have a safe & happy trip!

2008-12-16T22:48:00.001+08:00

Argh.
Hotmail is having problems again & I can’t open my mails.
I wonder why it keeps having problems lately.

& it doesn’t help that I’m feeling emo today.
:(

2008-12-14T02:15:00.002+08:00

Ugh!
Tuition is so much tougher than I thought!
Thursday was really bad.
I was damn stupid to give her hw from books which have no answers.
And I forgot what I learnt for science in primary school.
How the hell does plant reproduce by suckers?
I don't even know what they are!
And what's the difference between will & would?!
When do you use them?!
Like omg!
I can't explain leh!
It was damn embarrassing.
And energy from fuels actually comes from the sun?!
I told her it was wrong & she pointed out the answer from her textbook.

And the girl even told me she didn't read the notes I gave her plus she did all my hw last minute.

*rolls eyes*

I have a bad feeling about this, haha.
After I left the house, I went back upstairs again claiming that I left my keys on the table only to realize that it was in my own hands all along.
FAINT!
Even my mum says I'm lau kui.

I have a lot a lot of hw to do for tuition :(

And the dad says he's going to pay me 250 instead of 240 and I have a feeling they're going to dump me after this month, lol.
Like who in the right mind would volunteer to increase tuition fees?!

It wouldn’t be so bad if they were to dump me, but still I’ll continue to put in more effort until she improves.
Or until the day they dump me, lol.

SIGH.
SUNDAY IS NOT GONNA BE RELAXING AFTERALL.
TUITION IS ON MONDAY
:(
I've got much to prepare.

2008-12-06T01:20:00.003+08:00

Growing up is much tougher than expected.

I don't like having so many flaws either.
And I am fully aware I am not the most likeable person.
Experiences tell me so.
But that doesn't really matter.
What matters more is whether you believe in me.

Dinner with Qinnn at parkway fish&co.!
We spotted this handsome waiter, haha.
And this waitress who took our order was so enthusiastic I think she's the best service staff I've ever met.
Much better than the manager!
Lol.
Messed around at borders after that and headed home at about ten.

I HAVE PLANS FOR MY ROOM!
YAY!
Actually it's nothing much.

I only intend to get a corkboard from Harris/Ikea.
That'll fulfill the wish I've had for so long, haha.

HAPPYWEEKENDS!(:

SMILE, LAUGH AND BE MERRY

2008-12-01T00:51:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty happy with life now (:
Everyone can find their own happiness, whether you're rich, poor, ugly or pretty.
There's always something around that will make you happy or that you are grateful for.
Treasure what you have & procrastinate less, haha.

And guess what!
My mum found tuition for me.
It was unexpected because I was still thinking whether I should get one.
I've been thinking about it ever since exams ended last year, haha.
I always think & think and then wait & wait.
But my mum took action for me!
Haha.
But it seems like the dad has got high expectations and I'm afraid I'll do a bad job.
After all I didn't do well in jc and I've lost touch with school work for quite some time.
I really hope that kid would improve under my tutorage.
Actually I do feel some stress now.
And I worry now & then.
But whatever it is, I'll do my best!

But if I don't teach well and the dad doesn't want me to tuition his kid anymore, it'll be so awkward because he's living in the same block as me.
And my brother knows his kid and my mum knows the mum&dad.
Oh no!
Things can get quite shitty.

Anyway, my bro just got to know his subject combination and I'm darn envious because he's taking art&design!

2008-11-23T10:46:00.002+08:00

It sure didn't feel like Christmas is coming until I went to Tampines mall one or two weeks ago and saw the decorations at the entrance.
And all the more it didn't feel like a year is going to be history just like that.
It isn't just me.
Everyone seems to think that 2008 is going way too fast.
It makes me wonder how 2009 will fly past.

Hippos outing ytd! :D
We went over to OG and it reminded me of that particular day when I went shopping with my family many years ago.
I remember I was wearing a pink top, we had banana split after dinner and it was the first and last time we visited my godmum at her chee cheong fan stall.
She no longer works now and is currently taking care of her grandchildren.
I miss it so much now.
Anyway, it was hilarious hanging out with the girls!
We laughed ourselves silly while having Korean food at Bugis.
Thanks for bringing so much laughter to my day.
XOXO
(:

And I spent a bomb this month!
SAD!
And there's still one more week to go!
MORE SAD!

RANTS

2008-11-18T22:32:00.002+08:00

That office above is just so cool la.
If only I work there, haha.
The view outside is enough to make me happy.
Lunch has been good these few days (:
And we met this man who dresses himself in women's clothes and wearing a bra and sweeping the lift lobby under his block just ytd.
Like omg.
And relationships in the office is just crap.
Talk about teamwork (It’s even on the wall in the office).
Since you are being paid to work, don't skive and then push all the dirty/hard work to others and create misunderstandings about them.
SELFISH LAZY IDIOTS.
And I wonder why they don't get their retribution during the retrenchment.
The thing is supervisors seem to be blind to such stuffs.
AND AND AND.
There's this lady in my section who can smile so sweetly and yet give me the cold shoulder when we happen to meet along the corridors & life lobby.
She has this cold and unfriendly look which makes me think that her smiles and greetings in the office are all fake.
I wonder what the hell is wrong with adults.
I'm not gonna be like them, hahaha.
Ya la, like who knows I might become like them one day.
And I think I was laughed at for standing in front of the fax machine like an idiot.
I don't use a fax at home or for sch, so how the hell would I know that I can scan in all the documents and I don't have to wait for the branches to receive.
Yet the other lady who was sitting right in front of me doesn't even have the courtesy to remind me.
Until Mike told me about the fax report.
Hello.
Don't be so unkind leh.
You don't wanna remind me and yet talk in another language in front of me with your finger pointing in my direction.
Like what the hell.
These people make me feel like conversations with them are totally pointless because they are not sincere.
Like they can talk and joke with you, but you don't know what they're thinking inside.
But sometimes I really wonder if I’m being too naive and persistent.
Afterall, you need to talk to them to get to know them better.
And their jokes are usually harmless if you don't take it so hard.
However, they only take advantage of you if you're too nice.
That's why I don’t even bother to smile at certain ppl whom I used to because I could tell from their face that they were pretty reluctant.

OK LA. THE OFFICE IS NOT DEVOID OF KIND SOULS.
LOOKING FORWARD TO LUNCH TOMORROW.
And enough of my ranting, haha.

Goodnight! (:

GIVE ME A RIDE ON YOUR BIKE TILL THE END OF CHRISTMAS

2008-11-16T12:29:00.004+08:00

Hey, do you know where's this place?
And what am I doing here?
I think I'm lost.
Could you please show me the way?
Where do you want to go?
I'm not quite sure.
Then it doesn't really matter.
Just keep the faith and be brave.

Really?

I can count on that?

Remember you have a mind of your own.

Now, get going.

SAKAE

2008-11-16T02:48:00.009+08:00

Dinner at sakae airport with Qinnn (:
I never ever get tired of eating jap food, really!
We got the seat nearest the entrance and it made us both a little uncomfortable to see the queue and the service crew who kept walking past.
Anyway, food was good.
With some new additions to the menu and a really cute mouse for the interactive menu!
And I bought a notebook from mini toons, haha.
I can’t wait for school to start so I could use it :D
Organizer, notes, doodles & whatever.

I feel like eating these food all over again! Haha.

Many times I secretly wish I could just book a ticket and fly off to Japan alone in the middle of the night without my parents’ knowledge and leaving a note on the fridge.
I really wonder how it’ll be like.
The culture, food, life, countryside, art etc. etc.
And leaving everything behind just for once.

Too bad I don’t have the money and courage.
I don’t have a lot of courage for a lot of things which really bothers me.
And it always has to do with inferiority.

These few days I've been thinking, that I'll really miss it when I'm gone.

BFF

2008-11-12T01:16:00.004+08:00

I'm so so so glad to have a friend like you to walk through life with (:

Thanks so much for everything we shared, from the tears, laughter and woes to angry moments.

And there'll be more to come.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCEEEE! :D
Love from ahzhen.

BLISS

2008-11-02T12:03:00.005+08:00

Click here!
Something good for your senses.
Don’t hesitate.
(:

I’m feeling energetic and bubbly!
And its simply because of the fine weather.
Plus lack of sleep, hahaha.
I love sunny days!

And no, I don’t wanna think of tomorrow :x

Think of big comfy chair and huggable bear instead!
Haha.

GOODBYE & GOOD DAY! :D

EXCITEMENT

2008-11-02T03:34:00.002+08:00

I had a random conversation with my sis last night and was showing her the postcards which I got from near my office.
I was telling her how the art showcase at rp (advertised on postcard) seems interesting.
And somehow, we were reminded of our sec sch days where we performed for our band and orchestra.
And both of us do miss performinggggggg.
Seems like I didn't really treasure the performance opportunities I had in sch.
For one, I didn't do well in my instrument, haha.
Anyway, that was all in the past.

My sis is finishing her As soon!
YAY!
Seriously, I can't wait…
TO HAVE MY TABLE BACK!
Hahaha.

I’ve found someone to visit art friend with (:

GOOD LUCK GER!
If you're reading this, haha.

2008-10-30T00:47:00.007+08:00

My phone bill was a huge surprise this month.
"Of course you pay for your own, no one said they’re paying it for you."
Right, I know.
But I can't help wishing that there's someone else who would pay the bill.

I'm pretty much awake now, since I fell asleep right after dinner and woke up at close to eleven.

MONDAY

Public holiday was spent at NUS with sis (:
It's weird how I know my way around the universities but I'm not a student of either.
It rained while we were sitting on the bench along the corridor & it was so dark I couldn't read the book that I brought.
It's crazy I know, but I wished I had homework to do like sis.
I realize it always took us awhile to warm up, but the point is I could always tell her about my insecurities and problems.
And my phone kept barking that day.
It's rare that I get 3 phone calls in just one afternoon.
"Hello. Do you know how to speak Chinese?"
"No."
"Ok, bye."

Chicken Bolognese at the coffee shop opposite the technopark is really good ;)

And know what?
I'm already thinking of Chinese New Year!
:D

ONE MORE TIME

2008-10-26T12:25:00.020+08:00

This is probably the most horrible week since the start of my new job.
The office is an evil place where people can be nice one moment and sarcastic the next.
The environment seems to be getting hostile by the day too.
It's just so tiring on the mind.
Tuesday is dooms day.
I still couldn’t think of an explanation except the reason that I have not been focusing well enough to remember the details.
And that is to say not enough effort on my part.
Unlike my friend who actually takes notes in her office.

And I just realized I made a mistake about the date I was supposed to fax my timesheet over to the agency.
Since Monday is a holiday, I could only get it done earliest by Tuesday when the person told me over the phone to get it done by Monday EARLY morning.
Why do all the bad things have to come at the same time?

I vented enough yesterday so I should be alright by Tuesday.
Things happened within the past year have only made me more disappointed with myself each time.

Not to mention I've achieved nothing for the past year.

Updates for the past week (:

FRIDAY

Eunice!

Called mab for a meet up & we ended up at seng huat where she & eunice had their supper. It was mac after that. Had a lovely time with the both of them (: And being the forgetful me, I left my wallet on the table and had to run back from the station to retrieve it.

Phew, it was still there when I reached.

LAST SUNDAY

My first successful painting
And it got me jumping about the room with joy (:

LAST SATURDAY/HIPPOS OUTING/HAPPY BIRTHDAY QINNN

Singapore biennale 2008!

This is actually a map of Singapore. The white spots are post-its by the visitors.

Maggots!

Bittergourds that were nurtured into the likes of a human face.

Inside the old supreme court building

Hippos (:

HAPPY MONDAY BLUES

2008-10-20T01:25:00.006+08:00

It's already 1 plus am on a Monday.

I'm still here because I dislike waking up to the same office routine hence I'm pushing back my bed time.

I'm already getting sick of work.
Anyway, that’s the view from the office pantry.
Boring view right.
At least we have a vending machine with drinks that are foc!
Haha.
It'll be good if I could work on a laptop in the pantry!
It's actually much brighter than the picture shows.
And there's a corner which I find rather cosy, haha.
I actually enjoy sitting in the pantry sipping my milo or eating some random snacks while staring out of the window/reading something.

Time for bed!

I'm dealing with another pimple outbreak which makes me dread daytime even more.
RAH.

2008-10-13T23:37:00.005+08:00

I can't believe I actually bought a book on watercolours.

That was two weeks ago.

And Harris is a really great place.

It's now one of my favourite hangouts (:

My first watercolour painting was a failure, haha.

But I took a picture of it as a momento.

At least it was still pretty obvious what I was trying to paint xD

I shall get more brushes and maybe a sketch book and then start on a new painting soon!

Now each time I step into Harris I'll be tempted to get another book on watercolours or art for myself.

I got tagged by Dajie and I'm supposed to list 20 things about myself.

So here goes!

1. There are times when I'm lazy to reply to sms-es/messages. (But it doesn't mean I don't care!)

2. I wash my hair everyday, haha.

3. I get upset easily.

4. I keep alot of things to myself because I don't always feel comfortable sharing. Only sometimes with one or two close friends.

5. I LOVE JAPANESE FOOD!

6. I like pastas.

7. I am not friendly.

8. I go for chips with sour cream & onion/cheese.

9. I don't dare to watch horror movies.

10. I love love love CNY!

11. I daydream alot alot alot, haha.

12. I've never been to vivocity.

13. I want to learn the piano.

14. Watching tv is my all-time favourite stay-home activity, lol.

15. I like receiving phone calls.

16. I dislike it when I miss my phone calls and the caller never calls back. I'll brood about who the caller is and what the call is for.

17. I like waking up for breakfast in the morning.

18. I don't like how others go 'wow' & fuss over pricey stuffs as it makes me feel uncomfortable.

19. I don't like drinking bubble tea.

20. I enjoy chatting with my sis because I think she's the one who knows me best and I can tell her almost anything. Though sometimes her crticisms does hurt.

FROM NINE TO FIVE

2008-10-11T12:10:00.003+08:00

I love sunshine & sunny days (:

HELLO WORLD.

I've been a superwoman flying everywhere about the office for the past week.

Today I could be meddling with the microfilm, after that sorting letters, after that UPD tracking and after that I'm over at the registry.

Hurhur.

This colleague was like 'whoa, you're so super' because thinking of it, she was the only one who has seen me in all the places I've been at.

And I quite enjoy being in my current office.

Which is probably good since my contract is going to last me six months.

I didn't have any regrets taking up this job, but...

Sacrifices or what?

I don't know.

Anyway, I don't eaxctly like doing sorting because this woman is doing a bad job teaching me.

It's like I have to ask ALOT of questions and she doesn't tell me the whole idea of certain things.

And I make mistakes only to have her telling me that I shouldn't make assumptions.

What the hell.

How am I supposed to know what I'm supposed to know?

Plus, I have a super bad memory too.

Luckily she has been pretty patient with me.

I ate a banana at work yesterday because it was fruits day! :D

A healthy lifestyle promotion in the office, haha.

I can't wait to receive my pay which will be in November.

That's pretty far off considering that I started work in September.

SAKAE AIRPORT ON WEDNESDAY (:

And that killed my craving for sushi.

Plus really good company from qinnn who kept me laughing with her Japanese, lol.

Somtimes I'll walk on the streets wishing that I was invisible to the world.

2008-09-28T12:27:00.003+08:00

This is the time of the year where I'll always count the number of households who decorated their corridors/windows with festive lights on the opposite block.

I can simply stand by the window or look up from the path I'm walking just to admire those pretty lights.

You don't need to be alone to feel lonely.

When they don't understand your intentions or how hard you've been trying, it just comes.

The week ended good with hippos outing (:

We were at cityhall yesterday and I could hear the engine from the F1 race cars.

Damn cool, haha.

Dinner at shokudo rsc and lantern festival at chinese garden.

I think I burned lots of calories from all the walking, lol.

It's that time of the year when my family jokes about my hair again -.-

Lion king.

What the hell.

Sometimes I can't help but think of those wigs they sell at bugis street, haha.

But I swear I'm not getting one even though they're the best solutions to my everyday-bad hair day.

They just don't seem real enough xD

And my dad recently used this kuku ringtone which got him the attention of the aunties at the market when his phone rang, haha.

Spring cleaning activity later on!

Time for lunch ;)

WHAT IF I SNEEZE CONFETTI

2008-09-19T04:09:00.007+08:00

HURHUR.

Was down with flu & I keep sneezing everywhere.

Headed down to whitesands library & I had to give up my comfy sofa seat for the toilet to clear my runny nose.

I went back later on to a different seat with a book on my left hand & toilet paper on my right.

And just as I was about to leave the library at the entrance, I think my sneeze was quite bad because I looked up to see this hairdresser smiling at me.

lol.

It's weird how I'm having random thoughts of sneezing confetti.

KUKU SUSHI DIDN'T REPLY MY SMS.

Oh well.

Come back safe & happy (:

2008-09-17T16:21:00.002+08:00

September has got pretty sunshine weathers!

DRIVE ME IN A PINK VESPA

2008-09-16T15:20:00.006+08:00

HAHA.

I told my brother that I'll be using the com for just a few minutes.

Now I refuse him usage.

I love my bro (:

Because no matter how I irritate him, he never gets angry for long.

And if we quarrel, he's always the one to talk to me first.

Plus, he's really cute & growing taller, haha.

Childish right.

But that's the way I am.

I hope to start work soon, then again not.

I need to keep myself busy.

Save me from all the insecurities and all the thinking.

Spare me from scrolling through my phonebook.

Bring me away from guilt & low self-esteem.

It may not be better.

But at least I get to be busy & move on.

I am not exactly bored.

It's just a feeling I don't know how to describe.

I received a call from this childcare centre yesterday.

And my immediate thought was, "Why take so long to call?"

But soon after she heard that I'm starting school in august next year, she said bye and hanged up.

So it didn't make any difference whether they call or not.

I don't like being an irresponsible person & inconveniencing others.

ANYONE INTERESTED IN SG BIENNIAL EXHIBITS & WANNA GO LIKE VERY SOON?

Art is cool (:

Art is fun.

I loveee!

UNSETTLING

2008-09-12T11:09:00.005+08:00

The sun didn't shine as it did yesterday.

The waiting & anticipation has made me lose any appetite for breakfast.

Ended up I couldn't sleep in either.

What a morning.

PIECES OF MY HEART

2008-09-11T10:28:00.005+08:00

Many things in life puzzle me, just like how I wonder about myself.

I'm really into art these days.

And I was wondering why is it only now & not in the past.

Not that I didn't have any interest at all, but... oh well.

Maybe I didn't have the time to think about/do anything considering how hectic jc has been.

But I don't even know if my interest is for real & whether it would even last.

I hate it when there are so many 'what if' and uncertainties.

And all the more I hate losing my freedom.

It doesn't help that I give in to pressure.

RAH.

Those 9 months are going to scare the hell out of me.

I'm already getting the jitters.

It's important to listen to your heart.

Life sucks, but love it anyway for all the good that has come your way (:

Like fixing a puzzle, sometimes you need a few tries to find the correct piece.

TAKING LIFE WITH A HEART LIKE THE LION

2008-08-25T16:30:00.007+08:00

HAPPY MONDAY!

Fight those Monday blues & wear something bright today (:

Fill everyday with love, from simple interests to people who matters.

Make your own life special & truly yours.

Remember to laugh along the way, even at the most embarassing moments & fears.

Don't look back - reflect.

Never think too much - charge full speed ahead.

Listen to that little voice inside of you.

When in need of help, don't be shy.

It may take some time, but keep the faith & be brave.

Lastly, be sure to have fun!

Start your journey today, from the littlest of things in your daily life.

Changes are important, girl & you can do it.

OF PATTINI & PIEDI

2008-08-19T18:14:00.011+08:00

It doesn't help that I'm someone who likes to escape from my problems & fears.

***

Anyway shoes are definitely great buys though they form the minority of my purchases.

Just looking at the pretty ones can make me happy.

I was actually browsing through pictures of them online & it reminded me of the pair which caught my eyes some days ago.

I've this sudden urge now to buy that pair of shoes.

It's time for retail therapy!

Soon (:

And just to mention, my crazy dad went on a crazy 11km run yesterday & he's suffering from aching legs now, haha.

I'M ONLY A BEAT BEHIND

2008-08-15T01:38:00.008+08:00

I left my heart at home today, but nevertheless, I enjoyed the movie.

& I never fail to leave the cinema with a big red nose, haha.

***

These few days I've been thinking that distance might not necessarily be such a bad thing.

Because the more you get to know me, the more you'll realize I'm actually not the person you knew from the time we first met.

Certain things & emotions I keep to myself not because I don't want to trust, but I'm unsure of myself.

Also, I dislike it when I tell someone something & they think small of it.

It happened before.

So let that little distance preserve whatever we share & keep things pretty.

It's also because I expect more with every step forward & I still care.

SCREAMMM

2008-08-11T23:53:00.003+08:00

Life's a bitch sometimes, for giving you all the unpleasant surprises in a day.

& all the more I hate myself for always getting in the way and screwing things up.

I've had enough today.

FAMILIARITY

2008-08-08T23:50:00.008+08:00

It's not easy to learn from your mistakes.

Really.

I always make the same mistakes only to regret it.

After all, it's also about fear.

TCC was great today with great company (:

The mains were tasty, but dessert was quite a disappointment.

& coffee is still not my cup of tea, haha.

I just got to know that some people at work have problems recognizing Chinese characters.

They got fascinated by the children's Chinese vocabulary book I borrowed for Pam.

Auntie Mary began flipping through the pages & read the words in monotone which amuses me.

& Vincent can't read the words without the aid of hanyu pinyin & the picture, lol.

It's heartwarming when the people at work gather around the tables discussing & joking about an issue because it's when I feel that we're like one big family (:

Especially during after-lunch hours when there are no crowds.

Anyway,

HAPPY NATIONAL DAY! :D

One of my favourite time of the year.

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

2008-07-20T03:10:00.006+08:00

I'd forgotten when was the last time I spent an entire day on a weekend at home.

Today was my very first time in so many months.

And I felt a little uncomfortable.

Spent my entire day on a book and I managed to complete it.

This was also the first time I'd completed an English fiction in years.

And the book was great.

The Kite Runner.

My thoughts wondered sometimes even though I was reading the book.

Days like these with nothing to do are just depressing.

And I'll end up losing sleep because I think too much.

On the contrary, yesterday was so much fun!

Had a chat over iced chocolate & iced tea at the cafe in school with mei.

And we ended up at the airport, at Sakae where we spoke of our secondary school days & did silly superman poses in the lift.

LOL.

For once, it felt really good to be an open book, haha.

FOR YOU A THOUSAND TIMES OVER

2008-07-17T20:28:00.005+08:00

The durian season is here again & unfortunately, durians are not to my liking.

I always avoid them if I could.

But just two nights ago, my dad came home to see a big bag of durians by the fridge and without hesitation, he began to pry them open.
Well, I had no choice but to join him since everyone was sleeping.

I just couldn't bear to see him eating it alone.

And to my horror, he opened one after another, only stopping at the one which he thought tasted good.
But none of them tasted really good to me.

& I still don't see anything good in a durian, except the fact that it could be a potential nasty weapon.

Oh.

The riders at work had been transferred.

So I made this delivery to Millenia Tower with Dewi.

It was quite interesting, except that we were pretty lost at the lobby.

& you the yaya papaya.

I dislike you for being rude.

Today's the first time I forgot my cap!

And I hope you're not disgusted by the fact that I wore your cap.

I wash my hair everyday!
:D

It's frustrating when others don't reciprocate what you have to give.

I'm still very bothered, but I'm alright.

I'm at a loss how to treat people like them, even though they're not the first.

Trying too hard is not an option.

Books can be such good companions & I almost bought one today out of impulse.

But I stopped myself from doing so simply because I wasn't sure it'll make a good read.

And the meet-up with Sushi today was a happy affair.

Like always (:

True friendships are like antiques, they increase in value with the passing of time.

WITH LOVE, FROM ME

2008-07-15T01:53:00.005+08:00

People can be so disappointing at times.

But maybe I should speak for myself too, because I'm human like anyone else.

Maybe I disappointed someone without myself knowing too.

And I admit I made mistakes which got me upset with myself.

The world is just so confusing at times.

I'm very sensitive to other's behaviour.

So if I sense anything wrong, I'll just back off.

It's like an almost immediate reaction.

Because I don't want to be a fool and stick around people who doesn't care or have a motive.

I'm too wary and sensitive for my own good, but I just can't help it.

Yes, I can accept flaws.

Because nothing matters more than sincerity and a true heart.

That's the reason why it takes me so much to move even one step closer.

And that's to say I judge, but not discriminate.

I'm neither the typical girl-next-door nor the amicable person everyone likes to hang out with.

Plus we are all at liberty to choose, so I should just learn to be contented with what I already have.

I shouldn't take it to heart that others judge too.

I'm feeling so much better now (:

A RIDE ON THE WHEEL

2008-07-08T01:34:00.003+08:00

It's a vast universe out there.
And like a ferris wheel, things are going merry-go-round.

I realised I've missed out on alot of opportunities.

And while it's good to be free from the daily 9-6 routine, I've got even more to worry & fret about.

Anyway, work was good todayyy.

Surprisingly.

Had random chats with Daniel and Yani which was unexpected.

Took a walk around the mini food fare with Hazel.

Helped auntie with the garliccc bread too! :D

AND I THINK I DID A PRETTY GOOD JOB, HAHAHAHA.

I enjoy getting along with the older generation.

Even at work.

Sometimes they amuses me, and they're easy to get along.

I remember how interesting it was to watch auntie cook pasta looking all flustered.

And even tough I can't understand what uncle says 95% of the time,

I appreciate his random comments and chats.

They're cute & amiable people and I love their smile (:

And its weird that I get many people asking me for directions.

THE SCHOOL BELL

2008-07-01T23:57:00.003+08:00

I had a fun chat with qinnn online today which sent me into fits of soft giggles in the office.

Now emoticons are damn amusing to me.

What with the red riding hood and la bi xiao xin look alike, punching bah bao, weird laughing and trembling emoticons and pink panther!

Well, the effect might wear off after some time (:

Anyway, I can finally satisfy my craving for a meal at Secret Receipe!

And my ez-link expired today.

It reminded me that I need to get somewhere soon.

My decision has more or less been fixed, though I'm still not very confident.

But it's the best I could think of.

And it's weird how people can get hurt by the same remark over and over again.

THE LOVES

2008-06-29T03:22:00.002+08:00

Narnia's a nice movie (:

And there's eye candyyyy! (See above)

Had a nice chat over lunch with Sushi at Long John.

I was being more chatty than usual.

Exchanged comments in whispers while in the theatre.

And you know, my friend laughs out loud.

Sushi, I think you're the loudest in the cinema leh, hahaha.

Had green tea ice-cream topped with mango sauce (hahaha :D) afterrr everythinggg ;)

The other was chocolate with almond nuts as topppings.

And Sushi insisted on having the ice-cream before I leave for work and after that insist that we take a picture which included ourselves and the ice-cream -.-

We finally succeeded after many failed attempts.

Thanks for the prayer and it was nice hanging out with youuuuuu.

LAILAI for supper after work with bestie!

I prefer the soup noodles (:

Took the wrong bus home, missed the last bus and I walked.

Luckily I live in a bustling estate and had mab on the phone with me.

And the first thing that caught my attention was the letter on the table when I reached home.

It was already opened.

Anyway, this is a good starter to a new day:

In the lunchbox of life, you are the surprise little yummy thing that someone snuck in.

MEOW.

It was a sweet surprise.

DANCING FREE

2008-06-23T00:52:00.005+08:00

I've been thinking of it again.

If the opportunity comes, I'm willing to dedicate my entire life.

I'm curious how far my passion will take me.

***

Anyway, today was special since Jiayan came down to lunch with me.

I've been hoping for that since her so-called O.R.D.

I appreciate that girl!

And you can consider being my job agent, hahaha.

Meeting Sushi in about 12 hours!

A rare movie date :D

And LAILAI for supperrrrrr tomorrowww!

Weekends are best since I get to laugh along with you.

HAPPY LOVING YOU

2008-06-12T14:44:00.012+08:00

That's a really nice pic up there isn't it?

Kids, sunset and the beach.

The simplicity of fun.

All you need is great company.

If only I could join them inside the picture, hahaha.

Like what Steve always does in Blue's Clues.

A great escapade it'll be.

It seems like money is the biggest worry nowadays.

And it doesn't go away like overnight unless you've struck some lottery.

To solve money problems, you'll probably need months of hard work, or even years for some.

Life isn't all that bad now (:

But it'll be good to be loaded of course.

And I'm ending my four month's stint in the office.

I can't wait for my last day!

I can already picture myself spending afternoons reading at the library.

I've lost my habit of reading since secondary school when school work started to get heavy.

Now I shall try to pick it up again (:

Thinking back, I should've used these 4 months to do something more meangingful and constructive instead of sitting in the office.

HMMMMPH.

I'm blogging in the office and it's weird.

Because my seat is right in front of my colleagues, they can see what I'm doing on the com -.-

But I could care less, haha.

I won't take too long.

And finally...

this may come as a little late:

Many thanks for accompanying me throughout the whole of Wednesday the week before, even though it was very last minute.

And sorry to make you spend so much on travelling.

That listening ear was much much appreciated too.

I had fun and I hope you did too.

And to that silly girl who sits in the office like I do,

you've been really great company.

Those random chats with you were really fun!

Thanks for seeing me through those super-buay-tahan-boring days.

Many more shopping trips to go, cheers! :D

And to that special friend who has always stuck around no matter how busy I got, I'm really glad we came this far (:

It'll be nice if we could be school buds.

Happy 5th year love! (:

THE RIGHT WAY TO GO

2008-06-03T16:36:00.003+08:00

I feel like I'm in a mess right now.

Many times, I'm too unsure of my own decisions.

When others say "No, you shouldn't do this", I'll start to have doubts again.

The people around me seems to be more concerned about my education than I do myself.

Actually I should have chosen a polytechnic education in the first place.

Even my dad thinks so.

I don't think I have any idea why I'm doing what I'm doing with my life.

Anyway, it's time I start looking for a new job.

I've had enough of office work.

Nowadays I don't really focus on what I'm doing and I don't take work seriously anymore.

It's making me guilty and the process just repeats everyday.

I think I can give tuition a try.

Or maybe some childcare centre or kindergarten would do just fine (:

FRIENDSHIPS

2008-05-25T14:34:00.005+08:00

I was surprised by sushi's phone call early in the morning at 1am.

Totally unexpected.

Though it was only a short conversation & some updates, it was a nice chat we had.

Thinking back, it's great to know that you have friends who've lasted you through your growing up years.

Many more years to go, cheers to friendships (:

PEACE OF MIND, MAYBE

2008-05-15T22:12:00.006+08:00

The past few days have been pretty good (:
I'm getting used to work in the office & what's more, I have my cousin for company now.
Days in the office feels so much more at ease.
We went to have lunch at pastamania (out of my curiosity) today and I got a lucky draw coupon! :D
FREE MINESTRONE SOUP, haha.
Seriously, I would have preferred the notebook or the pen.
But we couldn't see the coupon box for the lucky draw anywhere, so we took it back to the office.
Budoshu crab (lacking in sauce) & kousou prawn tastes good ;)
I like apple juice too!
& the service staff were all smiles and nice (:

Rushed to Suntec after office hours on Mon & Tues.
Work was unexpectedly pleasant.
All the greetings and 'hellos' have never felt happier there.
It made me feel welcome.

Ah han helped to sweep the floor.
It was very very nice of him (:

Latiff's random comments & incessant naggings were amusing.

Chat with Eunice while waiting for Pam was enjoyable.

Said 'bye' to Vincent before he left, but he was wearing a grumpy face.
Lol.

Pam said she really love us.
She might not know this, but we love her alot too.

And the usual walk back to the station was just very very nice.
Even though I'm always the one watching.

Lastly, there's the usual chat at the station with bestie <3

After the two days, I was so drained that I tried hard to keep my eyes open while waiting for the bus home.

And!
I just had thoughts today on what I might want to do next.
Everything depends on my uni application now.

(:

THE BALLOON THAT FLEW AWAY

2008-05-01T16:47:00.005+08:00

These 2 weeks have been most upsetting.

And there's nothing to describe how I felt just now.

Sadly, the weekends can't help to lift my spirit this time.

Sometimes, I really wish.

THAT THING ABOUT NUMBERS

2008-05-01T01:09:00.004+08:00

It dawned upon me today that nineteen seems like a really big number.
The difference between eighteen and nineteen is quite significant.

I’m referring to age here.

Being nineteen is like taking one step into adulthood.
It came to my realization during a random chat with my colleague at lunch.
She was asking me about my cousin who’s going to join us for two months on the 12th and I told her she’s twenty this year.
You could say that I ‘grew up’ with this cousin of mine, so I don’t actually realize she’s actually a big girl now.
Or maybe I’m not used to ages beginning with a two in front.
I still remember how excited I was when I reached my tenth birthday because there are two digits in my age.

At that age, I always think of being grown up & how it'll be like.
Time flies and it will soon be my twentieth year on planet earth.

And I still don't feel like I'm entering adulthood, haha.

Or rather, I don't feel like one :p

I think I’m thinking too much again.
Every stage in life is a brand new experience (:

Anyway, MOE shortlisted me for an interview.
But I’m not very eager about it.

Happy happy belated

2008-04-26T12:00:00.004+08:00

SUNNY SATURDAY'S GONNA BE SPENT AT HOME (:

The breeze is coming through the window & it smells nice.
I love sunny days like these, it makes me happy.

Yesterday was surprise, surprise & more surprise.
It's been more than a month.
Thanks to good ol' pals from sec school days.
I really appreciate the effort & thoughts.

We couldn't get hold of a lighter, so we had a mini celebration using our imagination ;)
It was unique, quirky & awkward rolled into one.

From bugis to city hall to raffles place, the day was happy & well spent.
But it added to my guilt.

Of balconies, dreams & being ordinary

2008-04-16T17:34:00.004+08:00

How I wished my house has a balcony.
Then I could spend sunny afternoons reading a book, surfing the net or simply sitting on the chair and looking out of the window at the pretty blue sky.
Then there'll be pots of flowers here and there and pictures hanging on the wall.
How nice that'll be.
It'll be even nicer with a swing!
But it's an impossible dream since my dad turned the balcony into part of the living room =/
Juat a random thought that came when I was watching tv during lunch.

Today and tomorrow's my off day :D
And it's been weeks since I could sleep until my eyes open naturally and not to the sound of the alarm.
It's been a lazy & quiet day for me.
I woke up late in the morning, had breakfast, watched tv, surf the net, had lunch while watching tv and then I surfed the net again.
I tried taking a nap, but I couldn't fall asleep with so many thoughts running through my head.
I know I've been thinking & worrying too much lately, but I can't help it.
Sometimes I'll think, that I'm already nineteen and nothing great's been done with my life.
And it worries me because I think it'll not be long before age creeps up on me.
Like what my dad wished, I'm an ordinary girl leading the typical life most people do.
And I don't know what university might bring for me & whether I'll even get a place.
How I wished I had some talent & is studying in some arts institution.
Hmm.
If I have kids of my own, I'll definitely let them take up some form of art, be it music, dance, speech & drama or drawing (:

Anyway, tomorrow's my interview at NTU.
I wonder if I'll get lost finding my way around those buildings, haha.
Wish me luck! :D

To best friend: Hope you're ok in school. Shall see & hear you on Sat! (:

I miss best friend.

2008-04-08T20:43:00.003+08:00

I'm feeling sad today.

Best friend, I miss you :(
& I won't get to see you till the weekends.